lifes been so hard these days. im sure its not just me, probably almost everyone's stressing. as more problems rush in to me, i come to realize that sometimes the harder you try, the worse things get. all these bad experience made me feel weaker and weaker. and as well distanced from God. yet i tend to pray and pray. as if thats the only thing i can do. i keep telling myself to stay strong and do what's right. but it aint working. people keep telling me to frget about it and not think too much. but how can i just push it away from my mind? and i keep thinking bout my problems  that i totally forgot how much my frends are suffering as well, but they still cared and be there for me. im so thankful to have such caring frends. even though, i lost and distanced away from a lot of them, i learned to cherish that at least we're still friends. and begin to cherish things more, cuz i learned that things doesnt last the way you wanted, but at least yu had that moment when you felt special.<3 so yeahh. i always try to think more optimistic these days too. i realize the more i think negative and seeing the worse of things, i get more emotional. so i rather just think positive. nothings easy. it takes time to get used to it. even though i dont want to let go a lot of things, i made my choice that it is best if i do, not JUSt for myself but for others as well. i want to just smile and laugh again like back then~

*fighting guys fighting!*

i had to admit. i miss IS25 days! --; thats when i barely stressed! and thats when i had the BEST DAYS of MY LIFE!

i miss my LesboCrew`. one of few that keeps me living strong<3